I have never known
or have ever had a clue
of what it would be like to love
and receive love from you.
I have two pictures that describe you
From them I imagine what your mannerisms are when agitated or happy
My only guess is that your addiction offered you comfort
from the loss of me.
Or your smile within those pictures was because you were carrying me.
I would give you my life, if my life could allow you peace
My questions range from infant needs to adult grief.
Shameful that my memories are meek
not from an outsider's perspective but the need of you to instruct me.
I learned how to treat a woman by the mistakes of others and my own.
A gentlemanly smile, a flirtatious grin, walking closest to the street, giving up my seat.
all so you would be proud of me if we were to ever meet.
It doesn't matter that you were/are a woman of the street
soliciting clients so as to feed your high.
Those two pictures of you resemble that of a woman who could have been my guide.
The day my father took me from you a six-month-old child suffered blind.
My mother's love, no longer a gift to cherish on this day or any other, for my life time
I have vowed that my children will celebrate Mothers Day under the same roof in which both their parents live.
That means monogamy, fidelity, will be examples of my own to give
You may not have been here to watch me succeed, but with every achievement your name "Sue Ann", in the back of my mind it rings.
Happy Mothers Day to a woman I have not and may never meet
Happy Mothers Day to every woman who has a child they can teach, feed, discipline
then reap the rewards of a job that is never complete!
I am fortunate to have the love of three women I recognize as a mother to me,
Dana Darling, Nancy Cisenros and Linda Reaves.
Without each of you,Â I know my manhood would be absolute,
Please know that I share with you all the love that wakes me daily
for it is because of you three, that I look forward to celebrating mothers day
and even more so, some day,Â with a woman that possess the qualitiesÂ you three exemplify in my wife to be!
If you know a woman who is worthy of such praise, grant her a sincere moment, bid her a Happy Mothers Day!